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just the girlfriend

i've been there for you 10 plus years
i've fought for you
and fought with you
i've stood by you
i've wiped away tears
and eased sorrows
i've pitied your pain
and kept your secrets
i've tolerated the flaws
and understood the insecurities
i've put you first
and considered your feelings in every thought
i've paused my dreams
even the mere mind flutters
i've forgiven the indiscretions
and bandaged my wounds
and yet i am still just the girlfriend
i've loved
i've cried
i've laughed
i've lied
i've changed
i've grown
i've rejoiced
all with you
yet i am no more than just the girlfriend
no ring
no commitment
no pledge of undying love
no bond
just the girlfriend
the understanding girlfriend
so why do i stay
why have i declined the opportunities to walk away
because i'd rather be just the girlfriend than nothing at all...
To Be Continued...

Update: I am now the Wife!

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